Moving on...

In case anyone is still checking in here despite the long silence, I thought I'd let you know, my writing, observations and examinations of detail have mostly moved to our new joint blog, at:

http://forestvoices.org/farmblog/

Join me there as Noah and I explore what it means to attempt a hand-made life, a creative homestead, and the growing of food and community.

first growth: garlic spears

I couldn't reveal this special spring secret until Noah was home from Indonesia and got a chance to see it for himself, but last week, on a check of the garden beds, I first felt, and then saw, the first pale sturdy tips of our fall-planted garlic, just beginning to emerge from the ground.  The green leaf hasn't quite emerged, nor has the shoot really cleared the layer of straw mulch on top of the beds, but still, I know they are there, up out of the soil and looking for the sun.

Other things will need planting soon (or already), meaning there's a greenhouse to build.  And we've got to get to work on that deer fence. Spring is both excitement and anxiety, when you aren't quite ready for it all to uncoil just yet.

Currently::warm breeze

I just walked through the low pasture between us and the young-family neighbors who are coffee members.  The plants are all still hiding, for the most part, but it just sort of feels like the ground is getting ready to go.  There was a definitely spring-like breeze blowing down from Blue Mountain; the sort that is big and round, soft.  It had me involuntarily scanning the ground for lupine seedlings, though really they are still a ways off (and probably not in our pasture here, anyway).  

The work for a while has been all outreach for the coffee and storytelling class.  The sort of work that has no clear way to measure progress.  I'm long past ready for a day of something that havs a visible accomplishment:  shoveling manure, digging a garden bed, pruning the orchard.  We desperately need to build some sort of greenhouse so we can start our seedlings.  

There's an intense sense of needing to dig in and get to a more grounded kind of work, blowing in on that wind.  

I roast your coffee!

This is where things get complicated with the blogging, suddenly.....we've launched the Forest Voices website, so I'll be writing some things for that in the coming weeks and months.  Of course, there's some overlap (some people might have perfectly clear divisions between 'home' and 'work' lives, but that's probably never going to be the case here).  So, for the whole story of how I introduced myself with that line "I'm Mary, I roast your coffee!" to completely the wrong person, I'll send you to the Forest Voices blog entry.  

I'm gearing up for a solo coffee roast tomorrow, to get our next round of shares delivered, while Noah's in Indonesia.  They'll be ready for the Friday morning delivery.  This photo is from our last round of deliveries, the first in Missoula--crossing Higgins Ave in Downtown Missoula with a box of coffee for members to pick up definitely was fun.

The Durian Has Landed

I spoke to Noah on the phone last night, and got the first report from Indonesia:  lots of good conversations, great ideas and enthusiasm from Eko, our Indonesian collaborator.  He showed a slideshow on his laptop to the women sorting coffee in the co-op's warehouse, which they loved, recognizing many of the faces he'd captured on his last visit.  He also mentioned cupping three kinds of coffee, and a late-night feast on durian fruit.

This was not exactly the original plan.  But given multiple layers of bureaucracy and delays in our attempt to have this course listed for university credit, we have somehow arrived at the point of launching course announcements and student recruiting at the point when...well, it might already be too late.

After talking with some of our advisors, just days before we were both scheduled to leave for Indonesia, we faced the hard fact that if at least one of us didn't stay on the ground here in the US trying to get the word out and find students, there would be no chance of finding enough people to make the actual course run.  It's a big gamble, here--of course most people need more than a few months to make a decision (and, likely, save up for) such a big trip.  We're going to have to get the word out to a LOT of people in order to find the magic number that will make it go.

We are, admittedly, not in a great position, time-wise.  It's not going to be easy, but we're also, of course, stubborn.  I've left dozens of phone messages with professors, despite how much I hate cold-calling.  We've run the numbers and figure that with seven people, we can at least break even.  With twelve people, we could even get paid for the weeks in the field.  We'll run the trip even if we just break even.

In terms of recruitment, we've put everything on the table.  And thrown in the table.  We (ok, I'll admit, it was me that started it) had a harebrained idea over lunch one day last week, to make something akin to a kickstarter campaign--but that instead of asking for cash donations, we would ask people to help us find students.  If you aren't familiar with Kickstarter, it's the "crowdsourcing" funding model where people pitch their idea for a project, investment, business, etc., and try to get it funded by donations of various sizes from supporters.  There is usually a graded series of 'rewards' depending on the size of the donation, and a key part of the model is that if the project doesn't get fully funded (i.e., reach whatever goal was set at the outset), then no one is charged.

An example of a great kickstarter:  last spring, my friend Theo, an excellent and generous chef who simply loves to feed people, wanted to start a mobile food cart selling Indian food in Missoula.  He ran a Kickstarter campaign asking for $9,000 to purchase and transport a used commercial-grade food cart to Missoula.  I donated--enough to get a couple of gift certificates for dinners at the food cart.  Theo got to start his business, and loads of us here in Missoula get the benefit of being able to buy dinner from him at summer concerts in the park!

Back to our non-kickstarter, campaign, though....we decided we didn't want to just ask for money.  What we really needed was people--students to come with us.  And we need at least 7.  So we thought of 7 prizes or rewards we could offer anyone from Missoula who either signed up or recruited someone for us.  They run the gamut, from a couple of our chickens to perhaps our most-treasured thing:  the barnboard kitchen table.  Truth is, neither of us wants to see that go, but at the same time, we are kind of hoping to have that problem!  (besides which, we are feeling a bit more confident in our building skills, and could probably make a new one in a lot less time now--maybe whoever got that prize would take pity and let us build them a new one to fit their space).  But we're putting the video out soon to the Missoula community, and really have put it all on the table.

We're brainstorming ways to generate some scholarship funds too, but are going to have to kind of keep that on hold till we have a sense of whether there's any chance of having students to use them!

The smell of mud and big plans

It's a bit of a spring whirlwind here.  While the ground is thawing a little more each day, with each afternoon a little bigger hint of that muddy smell that means planting season is imaginable again, we've been holed up in the office, working like mad all day, and trying not to let the thoughts of how to start our seedlings keep us up at night.

We launched the official Forest Voices website last night, hoping to get the word out to people who might participate in our May course, and also just to have a place to share our work, projects, and vision with people who are interested.  You can see it here :  www.forestvoices.org

We'll leave for Indonesia in just a few days, on the trip to work out logistics for the course, meet potential host families, settle all the small but so-important details for taking other people along with us. Everything from good guesthouses to stay in while in the city coming and going from Sumatra, to where exactly all the closest health clinics, hospitals, embassies, airports, etc., are in order to have a solid plan for any potential problems.

It's a bit funny to be down to the devilish details, without yet knowing if we'll have they key element:  people to stay with those host families, participate in activities we line up, or need (or even better, not need) to access medical care, transport, etc.. It's a big gamble.  We've put our time and savings into this, we've give up other work that actually pays, and there's no guarantee that it's going to pay off.  We're reaching out to friends to ask for help finding students and people to participate.  And we are just going ahead, too, pitching in and doing whatever we can to try to make it fly.

It can be a little crazy--maybe more than a little crazy.  And we take on risks and challenges all the time, but this one is a whole new scale.  As crazy as learning to ride the tandem bike was, this takes it to the next level--or several levels up, perhaps.  We've written a bit about the feeling here, on the new website, too.

Growing up fast

Remember the chicks, brand-new and fluffy?  I'm afraid I've done what most people raising baby chicks end up doing, in terms of pictures and documentation.  Dozens of photos of the first few days, then a long gap, and suddenly they look like chickens.  Full-grown chickens!

"the girls" have grown up a lot in the last few months.  

Well, they are still quite a bit smaller than our big old MaryLou, but they are decidedly not chicks anymore. The good news is, they are in fact friendly and pet-able, making them great for visiting friends.  This morning our two-year-old neighbor Will got to get right up close and personal with MaryLou and one of the Buff Orpingtons (the yellowish ones in this picture), petting and clucking right back at them.

The Chicken Channel

The first eggs from our Thanksgiving chicks are still at least a good month or more away (I don't know how many times I've counted out on my fingers "let's see, end of November to end of...December (1), January (2), February (3), March(4)..." figuring that they won't start laying till at least 12 weeks old.  We'll see.  I have high hopes for those thin flighty white leghorns (in our last flock, back in Oregon that was who laid first and most often.  That is, until she met a most unfortunate early end.)

But, as I said before, while we wait for them to begin, we are grateful that our secondhand chicken, MaryLou, has been gifting us an egg every day or two.  We still aren't sure what her breed is, but here is is in all her shiny black glory.  

Noah left a while ago with a cup of coffee and the bucket of kitchen scraps for the girls, and hasn't returned yet...I have a strong suspicion he's savoring that feeding and taking a little time to wake up with the chicken channel this morning.  

Invitation: come to Indonesia!

Things have been quiet on the blog lately, because they have been anything but quiet on the work front.    We are in suspense for an unknown time, waiting to hear whether the University will grant academic credits for our proposed course.  At the same time, we've decided that even if they don't, if we can recruit enough students to have it at least break even, we'll run it just on our own, as a Forest Voices program (8 students would do it....with 10 or more, we'd even get paid a little bit).   

Since here it is February, and the course is scheduled for late May, there is suddenly a shocking lack of time to actually find and convince those theoretical 8-12 people to come with us.  And that is how there has been no time to write of chickens or thawing snow or even the neighboring we've been doing as we continue to try to make connections here.  That will come, hopefully, in time, as things settle.  

In the meantime, most energy will continue to go towards getting the word out, trying to find people to help us recruit students, and to planning the details for the course.  Next week, on the 20th, we will leave for Indonesia to settle the final details with the coffee farmer groups who will host students there.   

In Each Hand

A few days ago, I checked the chickens' water fount on my way back to the house from the toolshed office.  It was empty, needed filling, and some days there simply isn't time to switch gears between the work of writing grants or course proposals and tending the growing things.  And that's how I found myself suddenly picking my way carefully across the ice-rink the yard has become, balancing a 3-gallon chicken waterer in my left hand and a messenger bag containing books and a macbook over my right shoulder.

I knew it would be an image that stuck with me--late afternoon light sliding through the treacherous footing, me with my strange load hurrying just a little, and working hard for the balance.  It feels like that a lot, lately.  No one doubts we have too many projects in the works, but stubborn as we are, we try to keep hold of the whole load anyway, and stay upright on the tricky footing.

It's a balancing act.  Carrying in each hand the aprehension and excitement, hope and terror, the work of thoughts and learning and the work of endless details that are needed to make them happen.  The poetry and compost, we hold all together in one awkward load, just trying to stay upright and move forward.

Big MaryLou

Missoula went through its hard-fought urban chicken law challenge years ago, during my last residency here.  I had good friends in grad school who were active in the chicken-advocacy that finally set local ordinances making backyard chicken-keeping legal within city limits, and set a few boundaries and guidelines around it. Like a lot of towns and cities, Missoula allows residents to keep no more than three hens (no roosters) as pets and for egg production.  There are other fine-print rules related to smells, food storage, nuisance complaints from neighbors, etc., but generally people are getting on pretty well with small backyard flocks of chickens.  I love this, as a way for people to have access to really good quality, humanely produced eggs (most people with only a few chickens are so attached to and invested in them, they have a pretty good--sometimes ridiculously good--quality of life, compared to factory-farmed chickens).

Chickens don't live forever, though, and when one's entire flock is only three ladies, it's not unusual for urban chicken owners to suddenly find themselves with one lonely hen after the demise (usually from raccoons or dogs) or expiration (generally from old age) of the other two.  Chickens are flock animals, and a single chicken can seem pretty sad and mopey. Faced with one lonely hen on their hands,

My friend and grad school lab-mate Sarah found herself in this predicament recently, and called on us.  I'm slowly realizing that chicken-refuge may become part of our farming plan, because we have already gotten word of another person who is looking to give away hens that she doesn't have time or energy to care for anymore (we're not sure we have room for all of them, but we'll see what we can do).  Sarah got three chickens we she bought a house in her second year of grad school, four years ago.  She's a devout vegetarian, and while she delighted in the egg production and felt at some level she should think of the chickens as livestock, the truth is, they were pets.  There are pictures of her holding them gleefully up to the camera as pullets, on her facebook page. They had names:  Susie Q, Rosie, and MaryLou.

Sadly, over the last few months she lost both Rosie and Susie Q, so a few weeks ago I had a rather morose phone call from Sarah, asking if we could perhaps take MaryLou in to our young flock so she'd have some company.  It turned out to be quite a good deal for us, since she came with a lot of accessories--Sarah is finishing grad school and leaving Missoula soon and happy to have one shed cleaned out of chicken accessories and old straw bales well in advance of her packing and moving.  So on a dark snowy evening, we stopped by Sarah's house with the truck and the cat carrier and loaded up far more than we really expected:  10 or more hay bales, a big bag of scratch, another of layer feed, a half-bag of oyster shells,  a feeder, a waterer, a heated platform to keep the waterer from freezing solid (never needed in Oregon, but quite a necessity here in Montana, we've discovered!).  And of course, the star of the show, one fat black chicken.

We'd thought out 9-week-old chicks had gotten so big and shaped like full-grown chickens, that we'd forgotten they were barely teenagers, and still quite small.  MaryLou had some heft!  A black Maran, I believe, she has feathers the iridescent blue-green black of a crow, and a bright red comb.  All that picking up and loving she'd gotten as a pet chicken meant she was docile and quiet, quite a contrast to our wild wiley hens in Forest Grove.  She did not take kindly to the young upstarts, and for a few days we thought she might not be compatible at all, and even called around a few other friends to see if anyone could take her in.  But luckily, while we were trying to find a new place for her (with no luck) she managed to work out a truce with the 19 young pullets also in the coop.  It's a spacious coop, and they are quick, so there's been very little actual pecking.  But they've learned she's boss, and now she just has to give them a stern eye and they give her her space.

We'd assumed all along that MaryLou was here on a retirement plan.  At Sarah's, she hadn't been laying this winter, and at best we figured we'd get a few eggs in the spring when the days got longer--or she might just live out her retirement eating food scraps, making compost, and keeping the littler girls in check.  But to my surprise, a few days ago while adding more leaves to their bedding, I noticed in the corner...eggs!  Two brown eggs, in fact, and a few more, 2 or three days.  Turns out MaryLou is still working!  They are still rare, but it's great to have some eggs again.  It may be that the days are already getting longer, or that she's getting the high-protein starter feed we got for the chicks, but in any case, it's great to have some real eggs again.  

Important calls.

I try, of course, to be mindful--to be always observant, watching, aware.  But Friday morning, the white sky and clouded ground were a good mirror for my current over-occupied mind. On a mid-morning trip back to the house to make yet another pot of coffee in an attempt to finish out a last low-sleep push through deadlines, overdues, and quite possibly impossible goals, with my head down against the freezing drizzle, my eyes were on nothing more than the slickening snow underfoot, and barely noticing even that.  It's easy to not look, with a mind over-full.

Luckily some senses tune in on their own, and the sound stopped me in my trudge even before it fully registered.  Two notes, familiar, compelling, and new to today.  They brought my eyes up from the snow to slowly rotate and scan the treetops to find it, the small dot high in the birch, calling again.  Of course, it's a familiar song, but it took two calls and the image of the shape for it to fall into place:  a black-capped chickadee.

And with that, the quick instant, I realized 1) I hadn't been paying attention and 2) that I hadn't heard that call or seed any chickadees for a while.  It called me back, and put be back on alert (or at least more alert), and more likely to notice the next thing.  I'm grateful for that two-note call, and for the parts of me that can be watching and listening to that outside world even when I don't realize it.



You can read about (and hear the recording of it) here at the fantastic Cornell Lab website:

http://www.allaboutbirds.org/guide/Black-capped_Chickadee/id

Seeds

Seeds have been on the table, quite literally, lately, and very much on our minds as well.  We just put in our big seed order, which will cover most of what we plan to grow this coming (rapidly coming!) spring and summer.  It's the largest seed order I've ever placed, by a long shot.  We're hoping we got everything, and enough of the right things....we'll kind of have to see how it all plays out.  

We went to an interesting event last night, too, sponsored by the Organic Seed Alliance, the Native Seed Search, and a few other local non-profits, focused on seed security.  The speaker from the Native Seed Search (http://www.nativeseeds.org) spoke passionately about the importance of maintaining viable seeds as a public, natural, resource, and the importance of having regional exchanges and seed banks/ libraries to serve as sources for locally well-adapted seed stocks.  It was inspiring, especially after having just ordered our seeds from Vermont....after looking, unsucessfully, for seed sources more locally.   

Missoula is working now to start a seed library, for exchanging, trading, and stewarding varieties of seed that are locally successful.  We're excited to be a part of that, not just to reduce how much seed we need to buy next year, but to participate in that fundamental aspect of agriculture, which really got us all the diversity of crops we have today, of slowly selecting and changing varieties to match our climate, desires, and needs.  As Bill said last night, of saving, selecting, and sharing regional seeds "..that way, we are creating a better world, one that tastes better!"   

The first thing we did on that beautiful new barnwood table we built was to spread out a donation of 75 seed packets from High Mowing Seeds, to see what we had.  It's a ridiculous wealth!  Most of of these packets will go to farmers that we work with on courses, as a gift from the students that they host in their homes.  Farmers in a lot of areas (here as well, not just the tropics) often struggle with getting access to affordable and appropriate seeds.  All the varieties we'll share are open-pollinated, and non-GMO, so farmers can save seeds from one crop for the next year. 

neighbor trails

One wonderful detail of our place here on Sundown is the proximity to an old friend (and former housemate, in fact), who lives "just one pasture over" as I often explain it to people.  It could also be called "next door" I suppose, but since both places have long driveways leading off of Sundown Road, the most efficient way to get between them is to cut across a long narrow pasture, rather than going out driveways and down the road.

Since the last big snow, there has been a fair amount of traffic between our houses, and a nice little path has worn down, by trips back and forth to borrow some warm clothes from a guest, to loan a pair of sewing-scissors, and the last few days, Cedar coming over to borrow the sewing machine and my (limited) expertise as she works on a special sewing project.

It's easy to stay indoors, to stay isolated, from neighbors especially in the cold winter months (unless, of course, your young hungry husky barges into people's front doors and starts eating their pets' food, but that's another story).  We jump-start the neighboring by knowing some of them already, but we are reminded in our recent exchanges of visits, how important those connections are.  It's a good reminder to keep reaching out to others as well, that that verb of "neighboring" is so important for building natural, resilient communities.  Looking out on the neighbor trail through the pasture, just a bit deeper and wider than the deer trails linking other corners, I am reminded that, with a little effort, we can make more of those--a network of neighbor trails and connections for all kinds of support.

Building with the Barn Boards

We named our last coffee roast for some of the inspiring material that surrounds us here on the someday-farm on Sundown.  Piled in the old barn, behind some of the more modern construction scraps from the big remodel of Anita’s place, there was a small library of weathered grey boards.  We don’t know what all they might have been used for over the course of their life, but they’ve seen some time outside.  Though some may have been from an old fence, we refer to them all as ‘barn boards.’ We used several of them in construction of some of our basic shelves and furniture as we started settling into the house.  With just a quick cleanup from a stiff wire brush, they were pretty good—soft grey, distinguished with age, they made good legs for smoother shelves, butcher blocks, and more, as we started to build a surprisingly matching set of custom furniture for our little place. 

Mabel poses on the reclaimed-wood bookshelf. 

But as with many things, as we gained some more skills, we started to take the woodworking up a notch or two.  Over the holidays, Noah invested in a planer, partly to be able to take advantage of free rough-cut wood that we can pick up from a friend’s small lumber mill in town (also our source of sawdust, but that’s a whole other story).  The planer also allowed us to take down the rough outsides of these barn boards.  The main target was for making a tabletop out of those salvaged barn-boards.  I’d never planed boards before, but it turns out to be a somewhat magical process, peeling away the rough outer layers, even of scruffy, hard-used boards, to expose a smooth, often surprisingly bright surface underneath. 

In this sneak peak at the kitchen table, which we just finished this past week and are completely in love with, you can see the what was lying below that weathered barn-board surface (and a piece of un—planed board, for contrast). 

It’s beautiful (even better with the beeswax finish I'll talk about soon)....beautiful enough that we are actually starting to look around at our coffee table, butcher block, and shelves, and seriously consider taking them apart to plane down their barn-board legs to expose some of those bright colors and grains.    

Currently: Sunday, January 13

Cold snow crunches underfoot, noses crinkle in a morning walk. 19 young chickens are getting tougher in their coop, and our chores got easier with a new hand-me-down heated waterer.  Squirrels and birds have found the spill of corn near the barn, even under a layer of leaves and snow.  A perfect set of wing prints in the new morning powder show the landing spot of one magpie.  This evening that little patch of white remains untouched, surrounded by criss-crossing paths of footsteps from many trips to the barn, imprints of a busy day.  It's left, a rare smooth patch,  a small trace of beauty from winged neighbors, too special to disturb.

No such thing

Another little mini-drama production from the cottage at Sundown Road.  Our characters are intent on finally following through with a plan to cut through the floor of the upper story of the house to allow warm air from the bedroom (the basement/ downstairs), which has the sole heater for the house, to flow directly and more efficiently up to the upper story.

Scene 1: This morning, around 8:30 a.m., finishing coffee while wearing down jackets and wool hats:

Noah:  Before you go to work, how about we quickly punch that hole through the floor for the warm air vent?

Mary:  Hmm, I was thinking of doing that this evening, maybe.  It's kind of a big project, isn't it?  I do need to get some SimBio stuff done today.

Noah:  No, it's just a simple little project.  It won't take long.

Mary:  Well, I guess.  But there's no such thing as a little project.

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Scene 2:  fast-forward montage of measuring, remeasuring, debating, fetching tools, and drilling a pilot hole to confirm that location #1 will not work for placing a heating vent.  characters encounter obstacles including poorly located access points, floor beams, stripped screws, and overall strange house design.
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Scene 3:  Mary perched on a windowsill, Noah crouched with one foot on bed, one on nightstand, finally having found suitable location, drilling through the subfloor and flooring commences in a rain of woodchips and sawdust.

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Scene 4:  11:00, Mary leaves for office, Noah commenced drilling, cutting, fitting vent cover to hole. One broken jigsaw blade.

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Scene 5:  Trip to Lowe's for larger vent cover to accommodate accidentally too-long cut on one side.  Turns out jigsaw was better for some cuts than the skillsaw.

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Scene 6:  4:00
Noah:  Well, it's all in and fitted.  Now I'll just take the rest of the day to build the box around the sides.

[editor note:  this is to make a chute straight up through the space between downstairs ceiling and upstairs floor, so warm air doesn't fill entire sub-floor space.  again, strange house design).


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I stand confirmed:  there is no such thing as a small project.  

We can laugh at it, mostly, but we have had way too many projects like this lately, with little setbacks adding up to big frustration and projects that go on and on.  I'll admit, though, I'm glad we didn't start this one in the evening after all; it would have been another very very late night.